Even though I'm relaxed enough to be bored out of my mind. All the homework is done and I now have to wait until this fatigue spell passes before I can indulge in some good movies. Aa... I wish I could just sleep, but it doesn't seem like I can relax enough for that. Oh well, that's life. Never satisfied, always half of what you want even when you do have what you want.

It’s a wonderful feeling to know that you have friends who really cares about you. It’s less wonderful when you realize that them caring for you sometimes end up hurting them. I will work as hard as I can at being a person who is a good enough friend to actually deserve friends like them.

Uryuu, you’ve been awfully quiet. Is something the matter?

I fainted twice yesterday. The doctors say I’m dehydrated. Maybe not a very big deal, but you never know, right? I am trying to take care of myself. But sometimes I have to wonder… Why am I even trying? I’m tired.

I'm guessing this is the first Christmas with the virus, and my first Christmas without my "family" around. I guess I have mixed feelings about it. It's great that I get to spend some quality time with people I love, but still... With me having to go lie down ever so often, or getting nauseous, I can't really ignore the fact that the disease iis there. A bit tiring at times. Anyway... Merry Christmas~!

Fuji-kun. Thank you for a nice day out. I really enjoyed myself, even if the choice of movie came as quite the surprise, and maybe not something I would have picked… But never the less; thank you.

In other news… I got a phone call from my mother yesterday. She wants to meet me. I think I actually managed to sound civil when I told her more or less to shove it. I think she handled it… fairly well. I really didn’t think she’d have the stomach to call me not even half a year after the trial. She’s either got a lot of nerve, or she’s more stupid than I gave her credit for. Either way, it’s quite annoying.

I fainted during practice today. My blood pressure is a little low, so they’ve pumped me full with medicine, and I doubt I’ll be able to attend practice tomorrow, Atobe. I’m sorry. Still, it’s nothing to worry about, and I’ll recover in a few days, I’m sure.

I haven't updated since July. That's quite pathetic when you think about it, as I sit by the computer almost every day when I'm doing my homework. I need to shape up, because what's the point in an online journal if I don't use it?

Well... The trial is over and done with. Atobe's lawyers really are something else, aren't they? I must say that I'm impressed. And I'm happy he's behind bars now, even though I must say I worry a little bit about him... I hear prison can be rough. Well, I guess that if something happens, I'll hear about it, and if it doesn't... I won't have to worry, do I?

I wonder why so many of us young tennis players are born in October, by the way? I don't mind it, even though the month is quite dreary and uneventful, but still... It's quite odd. It seems like Gakuto is very excited about Halloween, speaking of October, and he has begged me to dress up as well. I find the idea quite amusing, and I'm trying to come up with something. Any ideas?

Health wise, October's been good. September was an all time low, as I was insanely tired most of the time; I actually had to stay home from school a few days just to sleep. Just sleep, nothing more. And I still felt tired when I woke up. I can deal with fevers and the rashes and the ache... But the tiredness is nauseating. I really hope I won't feel like that again. Right now, the things that bothers me the most are the rashes on my thighs. They itch. Not to mention they look quite horrid.

I can't come up with much more to write right now, but I'll try to remember this thing a bit more from now on, because I don't like to keep things hanging like this.

As a little thank you for all the good wishes I've gotten from you, Momoshiro, I thought I'd give you a little something. Please tell me if it hasn't arrived in the mail by Tuesday, and I'll see to that it gets sorted out okay. Happy Birthday.

[ooc: He bought Momo a new t-shirt, a couple of tennis balls and two free tickets for a meal at some really fancy restaurant - bring a friend! 8D]

Sick. So, this entry won't be long, but...

Something feels not right. I can't put my finger on it, but...

Uryuu, you know anything about this?

Apparently it's quite widespread in Hyoutei. Who would have thought.

Either way, I am starting to adjust to the situation at hand, and I think I'm feeling pretty good, all things considering. The bad thing about all the rumors and all the backstabbing that's going around is that it's affecting Gakuto too. That, I don't approve of.